A Verse to Live by

"No trial has come to you but what is human. God is faithful and will not let you be tried beyond your strength;
but with the trial he will also
provide a way out, so that you may be able to bear it."
1 Cor 10:13

Wednesday, April 8, 2015

Amiss, Remiss, Dismiss

Today is the 6th tormentiversary of Ron's death. Hard to believe he's been gone that long from me, from family, from all who loved him. I am not sure of the weather that day, I think it was overcast with clouds leaking intermittent precipitation. What I am sure of is how hard I tried to redefine time so that I could hold on to him just a little longer. I wanted seconds to become like hours so that hours could become days.

Over the five days he spent in the hospital, when the hope of recovery was still alive, I sang to him (I like to think with him). RJ loved Bob Marley, especially "Is This Love." I'd pull up that song on my iPod, place an ear bud in each of our ears, and sing. The lyrics include the lines, "We'll be together with a roof right over our heads; We'll share the shelter of my single bed."  Those lyrics made me smile then and now. When Ron and I first met -- first fell in love -- we lived in my Grandview apartment and shared my single bed, literally a twin-sized bed, which was not a a lot of space when one of two people was 6' 3" in height! Before this calamity enveloped us, I used to tell him that he was my sunshine, my ray of light that made everything better when all else sucked. When we had to let go of hope, I sang to him in the operating room while they removed his life support and as his heart slowly stopped beating. The last song I quietly sang was "You are My Sunshine."

S.O.B.

My poison today was living as if nothing was amiss. Why? Because I was remiss -- I did not stop my day to note the hour six years ago when RJ slipped away from me. But, I am trying to grant myself grace and dismiss the guilt that assails me.

How I miss... him.


Thursday, March 5, 2015

Clark E. Biddle

I don't know that I have the words to describe Clark Biddle. I can tell you that we've lost a bright light, a gentle soul, a funny man, a world-observer, a sage, a loving man, and a dear neighbor -- Sedona's buddy. My heart is heavy knowing he is no longer on this earth, but how blessed I am to have had Clark in my life.








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Wednesday, February 25, 2015

And That's How Life Works

Ok, I know I said "good bye," but things change -- now I'm saying "hello again." Why? Well, while I have successfully kicked the CBitch from my body, I realized this morning that the positive beyond-the-body after affects render this blog still relevant -- at least for awhile longer. A variety of factors brought me to this conclusion, two in particular: Feb. 23 marked my third year as a survivor -- HOORAY! Another was a recent invitation to share my experience at an annual cancer survivor picnic in June. I said "yes," which left me feeling humbled, a little frightened, and excited. I have to get these remarks -- my story -- right, and I believe that only can be achieved with the help of Bosomundheit.

To quote the first line of lyrics from a favorite Sound of Music song, "Let's start at the very beginning, a very good place to start..."




Sunday, January 18, 2015

Ta-ta(s) Bosomundheit

It is time to bid Bosomundheit farewell -- our mission to kick the CBitch's ass being well accomplished. I have considered this idea before and rejected it out of a state of emotional unreadiness. Today the timing seems to be right, the stars aligning for moving beyond what this blog was intended to achieve.

There is, however, a restlessness astir within me to keep on writing through another blog, although it's hard to say when that endeavor would get underway. Bosomunheit, though static, will remain live for now, serving as a notification board of when my new writing venture begins.

I am grateful to all of you who have not only followed me on this journey via my blog, but have supported me through prayer, friendship, laughter, and love. To all of you from Bosomundheit:




Friday, November 14, 2014

Through Our Eyes

I am at the Spielman Center today for another six-month check up with my oncologist, Dr. Lustberg. The parking lot is at capacity this afternoon, which is bad and good. It means too many women are going through treatment, but it also means they are receiving treatment at a state-of-the-art facility from a dedicated staff and world-class doctors. I am humbled to have had that advantage.

On these check-up days, I always arrive wearing my coat of invincibility, the one that helps me believe that I am cured of cancer. It is a cloak I wish to wrap around every woman I see in the waiting area so that they too can again experience a life free of the CBitch. I am not naive. I know not all battles are won, some warriors are lost. For me, that's where the gift of faith, my belief in Christ's promise, makes all the difference. Note I said makes a difference, and is the difference, which isn't the same as saying the trial is any less.

My visit with the doc is more than 30 minutes behind schedule. Not complaining because I know she gives every woman she cares for 100 percent and more.

Pics o' the Day

Veteran's Day sunset.
Froggie Friday!





Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Lost in Thought

A relentless reflective mood has stalked me the last few days. I'll be in the middle of a project and, WHAM, my thoughts go skittering forward then backward and finally in circles. I'm guessing that what has me stirred up is the new job, six month check-ups, approaching holidays, my mom, my dad.

That's really all I have to say. Pretty sketchy for my first post in more than 30 days. Nevertheless, the thought-bug was buzzing round in my head and it had to be let out somewhere. I'll do my best to come up with something more substantial for my next post.

"I shall not die but live and declare the deeds of the Lord." -- Ps 117:17

Leave-me-nots
Authentic cranberry bog growing at the
Governor's Residence & Heritage Garden.
Pics o' the Day






Friday, October 24, 2014

Xtreme-ly Xcellent

I'm stating the obvious by saying that no matter how old we are there are still many "firsts" to be experienced -- big and small. A recent "first" for me was watching the odometer on my faithful Xterra turn more than 100,000 miles. I've never owned a vehicle -- new or used -- that achieved so many miles, let alone being the sole individual responsible for putting on those miles.

When I divide the that number by the age of the Xterra by how many years I've owned it, it comes out to approximately 16,600 miles annually. Pretty average all-in-all.

There is more to this, of course, than the "turning over" of the odometer. I bought the Xterra one month after losing Ron, so this mileage observation has me looking back at where that truck has taken me, physically and emotionally.

Fort Myers Beach -- three times (one of which included pulling a camper to-and-fro)
Multiple Ohio State Park camp outs
Countless nighttime ramblings with Sedona, up, down, and around central Ohio roads in the wee hours, driving out grief, working through the challenges of the CBitch, and figuring out how to navigate other general life challenges
Through breast cancer diagnosis and 30 days of radiation
To my most favorite, special spot in Ross County -- Holcomb's hill


Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Golden Memories On A Silver Anniversary

RJ's childhood friend, Keith Mills and his wife Linda
with us on our big day, Sep. 30, 1989
Twenty-five years ago today, I stood at the altar of Holy Name Church and married the most handsome, gentle-hearted, and loving man. It was to me a storybook day: the skies were clear, the temperatures cool, we were surrounded by people we loved, and our life-adventure together was underway. We were blessed to have a perfectly imperfect marriage. And, in the face of some notable challenges and deep sorrows our love never flagged, it only grew stronger.

Yes, I so very much miss my RJ and wish he was here beside me today. The fact that he is not cuts my heart deeper than I will ever be able to acknowledge. Still, God gave us 20 love-filled years together and I can't argue that gift.

My dad and mom with us on another
big day: renewal of our wedding vows,
on Culebra Is., March 19, 2009


Monday, September 29, 2014

Today Is About Joy

A few posts-ago, I hinted that change was afoot for me; it has now come to pass. On September 29, I started as Chief of Staff for the Buckeye State's First Lady. It was an unexpected offer, a once-in-a-career opportunity, and one in which the only answer was "yes!" I am blessed that both my professional and personal life experiences have prepared me to take on this new and exciting role. I will for sure miss my colleagues and friends at JO, but fortunately, we will continue to work in close proximity to each other.

Life is an ever-twisting path, upon it we find days of joy and days of sorrow. I am thankful to have the good Lord holding my hand along the way!:)

"I saw the Lord ever before me, with him at my right hand I shall not be disturbed." -- Acts 2:25

Pic o' the Day
My first First Lady event; celebrating the graduates of
CATCH (Changing Actions To Change Habits) Court.
Click on the link above to learn how this amazing
program is helping to support victims of human trafficking.

Sunday, September 28, 2014

Done, Over, Finito!

Nurse Judy and Mickey on "graduation" day!
I drove home from Florida two weeks ago. Got Sedona and the Turtle all settled in at the house then flew back down to Fort Myers Beach to be with my mom for her final chemo. Before returning, however, I asked if she wanted to wear my skull-and-barbed-wire do-rag to her last treatment and she said "yes!" I tell you, my mom totally kicks ass -- she rocked it on that last CBitch treatment. I have no doubt she'll start feeling stronger and more confident about her health the farther away she gets from Sep. 23.

My mom and I had some really great conversations during the nearly 2.5 months that Sedona and I called Fort Myers Beach home. While the insidiousness of cancer was not an infrequent topic, it certainly did not rule our exchanges. Lots of reminiscing and lots of looking forward -- we also talked about the grace we've received from God to help us through this trial.

It's been an adjustment returning to Ohio, and I'm not referring to the weather. I miss being around my parents every day. My siblings and I are fortunate to have a mom and dad as wonderful as Mickey and Bill.